Everything is just out of the blue. Problems start turning out unexpectedly and continuously without letting me to take a breath. When all the problems added up tgt, can it be concluded that I'm always the culprit who creates all the troubles and problems? I'm hurt, I wish it can be solved but I really tired and scared of facing all these shit. I'm restless, no matter how hard I tried, what I hv received is always their cold shoulder.
There's no one who nv do wrong things before. I admitted it was my fault this time, for letting u urself waiting at my house. If I'm not wrong, it was just my 1st time making fault anw. I was attending and nv absent for all the meetings b4, did u ever thk that wat were u doing last time while we all were putting our efforts also to discuss project during weekend? I'm upset and I just can't believe u are scolding all the vulgarities towards me, all the efforts we had done tgt and how we two cooperate to find the contractor last time just seems to be meaningless for you. All along the way until now, I can swear that I nv stop doing our project. But what are u doing during the past few weeks were only nothing and the 3rd idea? Report? Except combining, how hard it is and what can u be done b4 we conclude all our ideas? I really don't wish we turn out become like this but I have no choice to clarify my stand.
You. I knew it has been a long time since I really talk to you. I realised it all the way and tat's the reason why I'm actually finding u on msn and trying to chat with you. I'm really sorry for being so busy recently and I don't really have chances to explain myself. What I'm thinking is, no matter which clique we are staying with, the friendship between two of us will nv gonna change, even if we seldom talk in school. What the issue now is, I'm really worry and busy for my fyp. I got nothing to say but to apologize if u still thk it's my lousy reason. Since the day u hv scold me until the next day, I was really dissapointed, upset and angry when I knew there is SOMEBODY who exposed all the convo of us to the others. I hate that person n don't ever let me know who is him/her. Pls don't suspect me and u can ask me directly, I promise I will tell u the truth. Please, I hope u know and u can understand.
I thought u are the one who know me the most. No matter how many times I alr said tat I nv blame u, ur 'reaction' just let me heartless and disappointed. It's not ur fault at all, my tears just can't stop dropping itself, how can u do with tat u say? n I know I'm actually gave you alot of troubles all the way long, I'm really sorry and I appreciate what u had done for me. I know. I admitted u are actually really over sometimes, but aren't we are still good friend until now. Nobody is perfect, I know and we have to give and forgive each other no matter what. Tat's true friend. I know ur character and I really afraid of u not going to forgive me. Please, it's not a big issue and I'm the victim also. Give me some face.
Sometimes, I wonder is it really my problems for creating all the troubles myself. I'm really tired, stay away from me if u couldn't stand me, or please come to me if you feel that I'm the person who worth to be ur friend. I will appreciate :)
Bye,
CHAOS
